Friday, August 05, 2005
The Farm
Day One
Being here, right here – right now is so wonderful. I love to see that Llama Lady is so happy. The farm is so beautiful. Every single aspect. From the big picturesque house on the hill (picturesque from the bottom of the driveway) to the barn to the pasture. This town is so small. There is one intersection. Four Businesses, one on every corner and that is it. I am sure there are many other businesses just not in downtown. Hahaha if you want to call it that.
We went to the barn and she was explaining all kinds of stuff about the daily workings, the ins and outs if you will of the chores. She is so proud of her farm and as well she should be. She has worked very hard. There is so much enthusiasm for her animals… really they are much more like pets. She is so kind and nurturing. You can tell by the interaction between her and the alpacas. There is a very strong presence of love and protection over them. A very definite emotional bond. She has a way of taking charge and they want to be near her.
The animals are so graceful. They are so beautiful. You can tell right away they each have their own personality. Lol one of them pinched me….it was a baby. I took her picture several times. Her Name is Noir - She is a black alpaca. I was trying to capture how long her lashes were. I guess she got tired of having some guy stick a camera in her face. Lol – At first she was just licking my jeans and I thought, “well don’t you have good taste” as I was wearing Paper Denim. Then I felt kind of a tug on my pant leg, Then she went right in and pinched with her lips behind my knee. (they don’t have upper teeth. Instead they have this pad/pallete thing they used with their bottom teeth to chew) I jumped. Told her that wasn’t nice.Then laughed. They are so cuddly. I just want to run with them and roll around with them and be just like a kid playing with pets. The reality is they would run from me, and I would chase them like a child trying to catch the kitty-cat. Just standing back and watching, observing soaking it all in like a big sponge being held tightly by a giant hand submerged into a pail of water and then having that hand release its grip. I cant get enough. To see Llama Lady and hear her sweet voice. To listen to her speak of all things ALPACA. And I cant get enough. And watch her do the chores while I video tape. I cant get enough. To see her play with the dogs - still not enough. To have her amazing Llama Lady salad. Not enough. And I wonder. When will it be enough? And we talk and we share and we are being vulnerable with each other and there is trust and love and peace and fun and smiling and tears and then I know… there is more than enough, and this is why I am here and I know. Yes there is enough. I am in my room writing. My eyes well up with tears because I have missed her so much. And they are tears of joy too. I am crying and tearing and I want to stay up late and talk some more. And I miss her. And I love her. And I finally fall asleep.
Being here, right here – right now is so wonderful. I love to see that Llama Lady is so happy. The farm is so beautiful. Every single aspect. From the big picturesque house on the hill (picturesque from the bottom of the driveway) to the barn to the pasture. This town is so small. There is one intersection. Four Businesses, one on every corner and that is it. I am sure there are many other businesses just not in downtown. Hahaha if you want to call it that.
We went to the barn and she was explaining all kinds of stuff about the daily workings, the ins and outs if you will of the chores. She is so proud of her farm and as well she should be. She has worked very hard. There is so much enthusiasm for her animals… really they are much more like pets. She is so kind and nurturing. You can tell by the interaction between her and the alpacas. There is a very strong presence of love and protection over them. A very definite emotional bond. She has a way of taking charge and they want to be near her.
The animals are so graceful. They are so beautiful. You can tell right away they each have their own personality. Lol one of them pinched me….it was a baby. I took her picture several times. Her Name is Noir - She is a black alpaca. I was trying to capture how long her lashes were. I guess she got tired of having some guy stick a camera in her face. Lol – At first she was just licking my jeans and I thought, “well don’t you have good taste” as I was wearing Paper Denim. Then I felt kind of a tug on my pant leg, Then she went right in and pinched with her lips behind my knee. (they don’t have upper teeth. Instead they have this pad/pallete thing they used with their bottom teeth to chew) I jumped. Told her that wasn’t nice.Then laughed. They are so cuddly. I just want to run with them and roll around with them and be just like a kid playing with pets. The reality is they would run from me, and I would chase them like a child trying to catch the kitty-cat. Just standing back and watching, observing soaking it all in like a big sponge being held tightly by a giant hand submerged into a pail of water and then having that hand release its grip. I cant get enough. To see Llama Lady and hear her sweet voice. To listen to her speak of all things ALPACA. And I cant get enough. And watch her do the chores while I video tape. I cant get enough. To see her play with the dogs - still not enough. To have her amazing Llama Lady salad. Not enough. And I wonder. When will it be enough? And we talk and we share and we are being vulnerable with each other and there is trust and love and peace and fun and smiling and tears and then I know… there is more than enough, and this is why I am here and I know. Yes there is enough. I am in my room writing. My eyes well up with tears because I have missed her so much. And they are tears of joy too. I am crying and tearing and I want to stay up late and talk some more. And I miss her. And I love her. And I finally fall asleep.
